Chapter 90: Knights and First Love and Abandonment

  Every girl dreams of her fairy tale.

  There is a gallant knight, riding a tall horse, wearing golden armor and holding a long cross sword, who often accompanies her, clearing thorns and brambles for her, and appearing fearlessly at times of need to help her overcome all difficulties.

  The girl's fantasy often maps onto her own brother.

  Kim Tae-yeon has an older brother, but from young to old, that older brother only treated her like a toy and pinched her face, not fulfilling his duty as a brother at all.

  As he grew up a bit, during his adolescence, the young boy was not likely to take care of others, even if it was his sister. Not fighting over pocket money was already a sign of cherishing sibling affection.

  Before her sister Kim Seo-hyun was born, Kim Tae-yeon naturally enjoyed the love of her parents, but as for the so-called brotherly love, it seemed that she had not experienced it yet.

  Most Korean families have many children, and good older brothers seem to be really rare.

  In Kim Tae-yeon's heart, her brother's image has always been that of a little boy who was covered in mud from playing outside when they were young, would get scolded by their mom after coming home, but never learned his lesson and would still sneak bites of meat from his own bowl during meals.

  But the "brother" in Jung Soo-yeon's mouth is different.

  Completely different.

  That day, he suddenly appeared with a lawyer to seek justice for his sister. After many years of struggling in society, he knew the ins and outs of things and was like a simple-minded person who used the most just and childish method in the eyes of outsiders to protect his sister.

  "Come home with me."

  Then Zheng Xiuyan threw a tantrum, but he didn't seem to be angry at all for being slapped in the face. Kim Taeyeon was quietly watching from the side.

  From then on, she could hear a lot about Chu Jingyan from Zheng Xiuyan and Xiao Feipo.

  What Xiaofei said is nothing but those few things.

  But there were many things that Jung Soo-yeon could say, and on several nights, Kim Tae-yeon listened to Jung Soo-yeon's stories about their childhood while holding a glass of milk.

  Better than fairy tales.

  Jung Soo-yeon was bullied by a kid from the neighborhood, and then that kid was tied to a tree all night by Choo Kyung-yoon. Jung Soo-yeon wanted something but her dad and mom wouldn't buy it for her, so Choo Kyung-yoon would disappear for a few days and then bring back what she wanted.

  Some are cheap, some are very expensive.

  But Chu Jing's words can always satisfy Zheng Xiuyan's small wishes at that time.

  She was also criticized by him, educated by him. Zheng Xiuyan said that many of the principles she knows now were not taught to her by her parents, but by Chu Jingyan. Living alone since childhood, she would naturally know many things that others didn't.

  Jung Jaehyun said that if it weren't for Cho Jingyan, she would definitely be a very lazy and ill-tempered girl.

  Although in Kim Tae-yeon's eyes, the current Jung Soo-yeon is not considered diligent.

  But when she occasionally feels tired and needs another team member to step up, Zheng Xiuyan always manages to fulfill her responsibilities well.

  At that time, Kim Tae-yeon could indeed see a glimpse of Chu Jingyan's shadow.

  Can one person really change another person?

  Kim Tae-yeon curiously asked Jung Soo-young a question like this.

  Jung Soo-yeon replied seriously, "Of course you can, as long as you're willing. If that person is good enough, you'll be happy to follow and learn from them, and change quietly."

  Look, Zheng Xiuyan can even speak idioms, this is also a result of Chu Jingyan's teachings.

  Kim Tae-yeon suddenly remembered a few lines of song lyrics.

  When I was still a little girl

  I asked Mom

  What will I become in the future?

  Will I become beautiful and rich?

  Mom told me

  We can't force the truth, let's just go with the flow, we can't predict the future.

  Kim Tae-yeon never asked her mother these questions, but Kim Tae-yeon knew that her mother would also answer with the lyrics.

  Kim Tae-yeon was not a romantic person from childhood to adulthood, compared to Jung Soo-yeon's brilliant childhood due to Choo Kyung-yi, Kim Tae-yeon knew that her own was a normal childhood.

  Be down-to-earth in doing things, it's best to have dreams, if not, then just go with the flow.

  But Zheng Xiuyan said that when she asked Chu Jingyan these questions, Chu Jingyan said.

  You will become beautiful, I will become rich.

  Jung Soo-yeon asked, "And what about me? I also want to be rich."

  At that time, Chu Jingyan said seriously, perhaps you don't know, the money in this world is very hard to earn, and it's very tiring. But what's even more unbearable is that many times, even if you work hard, you can't earn money.

  Still very young Zheng Xiuyan pouted, I don't want to work hard, but I want to be rich.

  Chu Jing said, I'm not afraid of hardship, and I'm very clever, so I will have money, and all my money is left for you.

  Upon hearing this, Kim Tae-yeon firmly believed that Choo Kyung-yoon had been naturally good at coaxing children since he was young, and if the situation were different, it would be the most beautiful confession in the world.

  Kim Tae-yeon has not had such an experience, and Jung Soo-young's interactions with Cho Kyung-yoon are sometimes really enviable, as many members have older brothers at home.

  But each member takes out his own brother and compares him with Chu Jingyan, and they all feel that there is no comparison to be made.

  Kim Tae-yeon naturally liked Chu Jingyan, that kind of liking was not deep, very vague, but very beautiful.

  It's great that Chu Jingyan also likes Kim Taeyeon.

  But the definition seems to be even more vague, Chu Jingyan, who has never been very concerned about spiritual pursuit, thinks that it's better to forget about it, playing this game with a young girl is too troublesome, being straightforward is more suitable.

  "How have you been lately?"

  Chu Jingyan's greeting pulled Kim Taehyun back to reality. Before Kim Taehyun could respond, Chu Jingyan continued, "And Tiffany? I heard you two have been really busy lately, be sure to get some rest."

  "Ah, okay." Kim Tae-yeon nodded, why can't even greetings be asked just by oneself?

  "Xiu Yan, if there's anything you've done wrong, just compromise a bit," Chu Jingyan said. "It won't make things difficult for you, I also know that in a group where most people are born in the same year as you, it's indeed not easy to manage, this is really a bit hard on you."

  "It's okay." Kim Tae-yeon shook her head.

  "Why look so gloomy? When there's a problem, go solve it. Being serious is a must. Having too much negative energy isn't good," said Chu Jingyan with a smile.

  "En." Kim Tae-yeon smiled.

  Chu Jingyan lifted her wrist to check the time and said to Kim Tae-yeon: "You go ahead with your work, I still have something to do."

  Kim Tae-yeon subconsciously prepared to bow and bid farewell, but was stopped by Chu Jingyan, then his hand somehow had an extra bottle of milk.

  After handing it over to Kim Tae-yeon, Chu Jingyan smiled and said, "Drinking milk at night is good for the stomach."

  The radio program broadcast time is approaching, Chu Jingyan walked into the elevator, smiled at Chong Jintaiyan and then closed it again.

  Kim Tae-yeon was holding a cup of milk, still warm.

  One year ago, Chu Jingyan told Qi Qingrong that she seemed to like Jin Taeyeon, but Qi Qingrong said a lot, the central idea is that for young girls, love is a big deal, they will be very serious, and relatively speaking, they will have many requirements in details.

  For Chu Jingyan, such a careless person, it was a disaster.

  He doesn't like instant noodles, he also doesn't like taking selfies, and he's not very good at romance.

  It's a very difficult thing, obviously with Chu Jingyan's current cultivation, he can't do it well, so Chu Jingyan simply doesn't do it, so he chooses to avoid High Ya La again and again.

  So even when facing the petite and lovely Kim Tae-yeon, he chose to be a distant acquaintance.

  This is actually good for everyone.

  As she walked into the broadcasting room, she went through the usual routine of checking her script and then began to read from it. Suddenly, Kim Tae-yeon remembered something and spoke softly into the microphone.

  "Today's topic is first love, and the significance of first love is different for everyone. Maybe it was a senior in your school, or maybe it was a stranger who always sat in front of you at the library, or perhaps a humorous, capable, and perfect man who knew how to take care of people, but you just quietly liked him."

  "Because you don't know if he likes you or not, and you also don't know whether this feeling will still be as pure and innocent as before after it's expressed."

  "Or perhaps, just like the ugly duckling secretly admires the white swan, due to his own inferiority complex and because he is in the spotlight, he chooses to silently bless."

  "So we all choose to put this feeling deep in our hearts, and before going to sleep at night, recall him, and when chatting with friends, unintentionally mention some things about him, but we will all protect this fragile emotion well."

  "At that time, you would wonder if he's doing well, if he likes the Christmas gift you secretly sent him, what he did today, if he was happy today, if his favorite team lost, if he went out drinking with friends, if he did well on the exam, if he smiled brightly, if he would notice you, and if he would really have a romantic encounter with you like you imagined?"

  "Perhaps one day you will find that it has been a long time since you last thought of him, and when you mention him again, you no longer have the feeling of being deeply moved. Perhaps one day when he appears in front of you, you will discover that he is not at all what you imagined."

  "By then, you may be relieved or disappointed, but in any case, the fact that this person existed, appeared, and was liked is enough, because that's what first love is. The relief is that your first love never got better, the disappointment is that your first love has ended."

  "But what can be done about it? The beauty of first love lies in its imperfection."

  "After all, there's nothing in this world that completely belongs to oneself, except for memories. And first love, the kind that is hidden in one's heart and gradually disappears, is the most intoxicating fine wine. Alright, now let's listen to a song by..."

  Kim Tae-yeon's words had completely deviated from the script, but the director outside the glass didn't choose to pause, and everyone was quietly listening to what she said.

  Because it hit the heart.

  Kim Tae-yeon took off her earpiece, propped up her forehead with her hand, and suddenly remembered something. She reached into her bag and pulled out that bottle of milk. The milk had cooled down a bit, so she twisted open the cap and took a sip.

  It's pure, no sugar added, not sweet, and even a bit bland.

  Kim Tae-yeon pursed her lips and suddenly burst out laughing.

  He said if there are difficulties, as long as you face them seriously, it's fine. If you can laugh, then try to laugh as much as possible.

  Kim Tae-yeon suddenly felt that she was really suitable for being a good girl.

  Because I really listen carefully.