Chapter Fifty-Nine: Living for Oneself

  "Damn it, I'm exhausted." When Xuan Qi and the others were full and ready to go birdwatching by the lake, Li Jianliang and his companions finally arrived at this place.

  "Huh, didn't expect you'd still come!" Originally, Xuan Qi thought that with Li Jianliang's personality, he should have given up and not arrived here.

  Unexpectedly, he was quite stubborn and persisted all the way through.

  This determination made Xuan Qi look at the little fatty with new eyes. He hadn't expected that this little fatty still had some perseverance and persistence.

  "This road is too difficult to walk." The little fatty finally arrived at the destination, panting and kicking the willow tree by the lake, causing destruction.

  Xuan Qi couldn't help but shake his head at his actions. It was clear that this guy had a childish temper and there was nothing to be gained from him.

  As time passed by, night fell quickly. This time, the most important activity for this group of people who came out was naturally camping and stargazing.

  After nightfall, they gathered in groups of three or five, ready to stargaze.

  "There's a Leonid meteor shower tonight, can't wait!"

  Looking at Xiaoyu's excited appearance, Xuanqi only then realized that the reason she invited him to Hu Tiao Gou was not just because of the encouragement from their female classmates, but also because she hoped to watch the meteor shower with Xuanqi together.

  It is said that if you watch a meteor shower with your loved one, your wishes will come true.

  Although Xia Xiaoyu didn't believe it, thinking of being able to watch the meteor shower with Xuan Qi made her feel that even if she couldn't fulfill her own wishes, it was still a kind of enjoyment.

  Looking at Xia Xiaoyu's delighted appearance, Xuan Qi's face was somewhat unpleasant.

  At this moment, he was reminded of memories.

  In his previous life, also in this place, he and his girlfriend chose to break up here. The scene at that time is still vivid in his mind.

  "Let's break up, this thing is not your fault, it's mine. I don't want to wait like this anymore, I don't hope to keep waiting, waiting for you to mature, waiting for you to grow up. Rather than that, we might as well just split up. I don't want to be a failure with you!"

  When he saw his beloved say such heartless words, Xuan Qi's heart turned cold. Originally, he had planned to propose to his girlfriend at that time.

  However, what he received was his girlfriend's heartless words.

  After throwing the prepared wedding ring into the lake, Xuan Qi finally started his entrepreneurial career, intending to get rid of that loser identity, but failed.

  Then he welcomed the opportunity for rebirth.

  Past events were so unforgettable that Xuan Qi couldn't help but let out a sigh. Looking at the dense stars in the sky, Xuan Qi fell into a state of deep contemplation.

  "Brother Qi, what's wrong with you?" Xia Xiaoyu hastily shook his shoulder and asked, looking at Xuan Qi's dazed expression.

  Xuan Qi finally woke up from his contemplation and said, "Nothing, just thinking about some heart matters. It's great to watch the meteor shower, have you made any wishes?"

  Upon hearing Xuan Qi's words, Xia Xiao Yu's face turned red again, and she shyly said: "I won't tell you." As she spoke, she ran away in embarrassment.

  "What wish can't you tell me?" Xuan Qi smiled, finding himself a little puzzled by Xia Xiao Yu. He discovered that girls' thoughts were really hard to guess.

  Lao Ding said disdainfully in his heart: "Tsk, he's really an emotional idiot!"

  As for Xuan Qi, this emotional idiot, Lao Ding has always been very disdainful. It thinks that if it takes action, it will definitely be able to capture one beautiful woman after another.

  "Alas, I can only be trapped in this place and waste time, sigh!"

  Lao Ding looked at the cave in the mountains where he was hiding, and couldn't help but let out a sigh. Although on the surface it seemed vast and powerful, there were also many worries.

  At least it's not as free as I imagined.

  Xuan Qi's memories of the past were stirred up, and he stared blankly at the lake water, then looked up at the dense stars in the sky, his thoughts a thousand miles away. For this entire month since his rebirth, he had tried his best not to think about things before his rebirth.

  Every time he thinks of the things before his rebirth, Xuan Qi always feels a heart-wrenching pain. In his previous life, he had indeed experienced too many failures and betrayals.

  He was just thinking about the meaning of life. Xuan Qi knew that this kind of thinking seemed a bit empty and meaningless, but he couldn't help thinking about these things.

  In this life, he chose a different path than before. This road is more difficult to walk than the one in his previous life.

  The world of Xuanmen is full of wonders and unknown elements. Although he had the help of Laojun, it can't be said that everything went smoothly. At least, he almost fell into the hands of Shi Men Jing Dongfeng and lost his life.

  "What is it that I want? What am I pursuing?"

  After sitting quietly for a while, Xuán Qí felt somewhat perplexed and confused. Since his rebirth this month, he had been busy with one big thing after another.

  However, after calming down, Xuan Qi couldn't see clearly which path he should take in his future.

  In a few more days, he will be filling out his application and going to a new place to start a new life. From then on, his life trajectory will be completely different from before.

  For this change, Xuan Qi always felt a little flustered and tense.

  "Lao Ding, otherwise I'll fill in my original school, what do you think?" At this time, Xuan Qi couldn't help but talk about his own plans with Lao Ding.

  "Coward! You wretch! If you really did this, I would look down on you. Do you think that by doing so, you can be safe and avoid risk?"

  Hearing Xuan Qi's words, Lao Ding showed great anger.

  As for Xuan Qi's identity, Lao Ding naturally understood it clearly and knew how he was reborn. In fact, the reason why he was reborn was still thanks to Lao Ding's credit.

  Lao Ding let him come back, hoping that he could change his own destiny. Unexpectedly, Xuan Qi actually became somewhat timid and hesitant.

  "But I really have no confidence in the future." Although these days, Xuan Qi has been showing a very positive and proactive attitude. However, in reality, he is actually a person who lacks a sense of security.

  Xuan Qi had always wanted his grandfather to live a long life, hoping to make up for the regret of not being able to see him in his past life.

  As for his future goals, he hadn't thought about them at all. In his view, if he could complete this goal, even if he died, there wouldn't be too much regret.

  Upon hearing Xuan Qi's words, Lao Ding sighed and said: "All along, you've been living for others. At this time, you should choose to live for yourself, young man!"

  "Living for oneself?" Xuan Qi repeated Lao Ding's words.

  "Right, you should think that I've been reborn, so I'll enjoy life to the fullest and live a carefree life without too much burden or worries. Too many worries will bind your thoughts and make you un-free. Little guy, you're really the most boring person I've ever met. Even Huang Di, that workaholic, is more interesting than you."

  However, Lao Ding's tone suddenly changed: "But you are the kindest person I have ever met. You always think of others and forget about yourself. Don't you have any goals or thoughts for yourself?"

  Xuan Qi smiled wryly and said, "To be honest, I haven't thought about it carefully. To tell the truth, I'm really a person without a goal. Although on the surface, I've set many goals for myself. But these goals are all short-term, not what I truly need to strive for. As for what I truly want, I really haven't figured it out!"

  A conversation with Lao Tzu led Xuan Qi to become thoroughly perplexed.

  At this time, he began to ponder how he should live his life in order to make the most of it. How could he live a more meaningful life?

  Most people muddle along through life without ever thinking about the true meaning of life and living, from birth to death.

  For them, life is just life, nothing special. The mysterious and carefree life of their ancestors was like this too.

  But if I continue living like this in this life, it would be a very inappropriate thing to do. That would be wasting my life and the opportunity of rebirth.

  "You should think carefully and summarize. I believe in you, you will find your own answer. Only when the heart is free from doubt can one pursue the ultimate truth."

  Lao Ding originally didn't want to say so much to Xuan Qi, nor did he want to interfere with Xuan Qi's thoughts. However, he knew that if he didn't remind him again, Xuan Qi would fall into confusion.

  Compared with some differences and confusion in mysticism, this kind of ideological division and perplexity is the most taboo thing for a cultivator.

  Cultivation is a long-term process that emphasizes epiphany and experience. Once a person loses their heart of epiphany, they will not be able to progress further.

  The Xuan Qi in front of him is at this stage of enlightenment. If he can get through this pass, he will go further on the path of cultivation and impact a new realm.

  However, if he doesn't break through, he will still be stuck at that stage and won't be able to progress further. No matter how many more mysterious techniques he learns, it won't make up for this point.

  Just as Laozi said, those are heterodox and not the orthodox way.

  "What do I want, what am I pursuing, and what do I want to do?" With such thoughts, Xuan Qi sank into deep contemplation.

  Watching the shooting stars streaking across the sky, Xuan Qi felt infinite emotion in his heart.

  The meaning of life, the significance of life, these grand propositions seem to be extremely small compared to the vast universe.

  As he watched the meteor shower releasing its own light and then instantly extinguishing, Xuan Qi had a feeling of wanting to cry.

  That flavor is hard to describe.

  "Perhaps I have found the meaning of my life." At this time, Xuan Qi looked up at the sky and then gazed at his reflection in the lake water, murmuring to himself.

  At this time, he has gone through another mental journey.

  Although it was just a brief moment, he felt that he had matured a lot more.

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