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The distance is zero.

  The distance is zero.

  Under the deep night, a taxi sped across the road, and on the back seat of the taxi, a 1.5-meter-tall little loli was slumped, suffering from unbearable pain.

  Her whole body reeked of alcohol, and she looked like a young loli who had just been reveling in a nightclub not long ago. She seemed dazed and unconscious, but the dazzling cityscape outside the car windows on both sides was reflected clearly in her eyes. The driver's occasional glance through the rearview mirror, filled with a mixture of pity and disdain, also caught her attention.

  Ordinary and irrelevant people's opinions and faces, although she doesn't care much about them, usually would have given a cold and annoyed glance in normal times, but at this moment, there really wasn't the energy to be disgusted by those boring misunderstandings.

  She felt dizzy and nauseous, and had been holding it in for the entire car ride. At this moment, she was feeling so miserable that she wanted to die.

  Nicotine and alcohol were things she had never touched before, but now the extremely strong discomfort caused by touching them made her suffer greatly. At that time, due to the presence of two close friends, she could only cover up her painful expression by bowing her head on the table.

  But after hiding and suppressing for a long time, it becomes even more unbearable. She doesn't feel sleepy at all, but instead is tormented to the point of being dazed, yet her mind is exceptionally clear.

  After extreme restraint, the increasingly strong nausea from her stomach told her that she couldn't stay in this taxi any longer. She struggled to sit up, took out money from her pocket and asked the driver to stop the car.

  It's not easy to stop on the highway, but the driver also saw her discomfort symptoms, frowned slightly, chose a safe opportunity, and stopped for a moment. After she got off the car with difficulty, he drove away quickly.

  She stumbled and staggered to the side of the road, holding onto a streetlight pole and starting to vomit. The little barbecue she had eaten earlier and her dinner all came out, but the urge to vomit still lingered. Occasionally unable to bear the cramps in her abdomen, she walked a bit further ahead to maintain her image and safety, leaning against another streetlight pole, squatting on the dimly lit road with a tired face.

  The occasional gust of wind from the passing vehicles ruffled her short, straight hair, and the faint, dim light from the street lamps cast a pale glow on her, casting her shadow onto the ground beneath her feet.

  Her mind a complete blank, she stared foolishly at the shadow huddled at her feet, as if mesmerized by the shadow in the lamplight.

  The phone suddenly rang, she pressed her chest and frowned, holding back a groan, before bringing the phone to her ear.

  "Are you home yet? Xiao Xue." A similarly hoarse and tired voice came from the other end.

  She nodded and murmured, "I'm here, you two should head back soon too, huh?"

  "Uh... almost there, we're on the road." The voice from that side was constantly enveloped by the noisy atmosphere of the night market.

  She pouted and sighed, seemingly somewhat helpless and dissatisfied, saying: "Well, that's it. You two be careful, see you tomorrow."

  "Uh, see you tomorrow..."

  She hung up the phone and suddenly covered her chest, vomiting again. The pretty face was filled with pain, and the slender figure leaning against the streetlight pole on the wide but dim highway seemed especially lonely and helpless.

  She vomited repeatedly for several times, and her discomfort was relieved. She finally stood up with the support of a lamppost, staggering away from the chaotic area under the lamppost.

  She stood on the roadside under the autumn night, frowning and waiting for the next passing taxi.

  Finally on the car, she simply reported her own residence address, which made the driver stunned and speechless. Then she curled up in the back seat to recharge, gradually with a smile rising, thinking in her heart that today was really fun!

  ……

  ……

  It was still that noisy and chaotic corner, a messy small wooden table sat two transformed women, silent to each other.

  Liu Youyou still had a elegant and charming pose, with a long, thin cigarette held between her fingers, exuding an aura of mystery and temptation as she slowly savored the smoke, her face dazed and intoxicated. Her curved and extremely charming eyelashes seemed to be able to hold onto all the night's colors.

  Ye Cai's hand was propped up on the table, her head half-buried in it, her eyes dim and weak, her face dull and stupid-looking. Her hair was neatly combed back behind her ears, except for a single strand that fell across her left eye, making her look particularly dispirited and listless.

  Previously, they agreed that she would have five bottles of Liu Youyou and two bottles of Xiao Xue, but after Xiao Xue left, the two of them silently finished off the remaining beer. It seemed that both of them felt a kind of helpless decadence about being "girly friends" with Ben Se Mei. After all, they weren't purely girls, their values, outlook on life and many other ideas were still those of boys.

  So I sat with Ben Se Mei "Xiao Xue", and there was nothing in common, even for the slightly cold scene before, feeling a little guilty and bitter.

  Whether it was Ye Cai or Liu Youyou, they both knew that Xiao Xue had already learned about their unspoken secrets and gray past, but Xiao Xue chose to let bygones be bygones. This tolerance made them feel guilty and fearful of facing the silent treatment in their future interactions with Xiao Xue.

  That's right, they are always a gathering of contradictions.

  What's the contradiction?

  They used to be boys, now they are girls, but in their hearts, they still see themselves as boys, and even refuse to associate with boys too much. However, if they want to make friends or become close friends with real girls, they must first cultivate themselves into qualified standard girls, but the premise is that they have to overcome the psychological barrier of being a standard girl.

  What characteristics do standard girls usually have?

  Indeed, interest in boys is an inevitable element.

  This left them both speechless and bitter.

  Because the two of them have been avoiding the hints of physical instinct hormones since they became girls, and have been suppressing their good feelings and impulses after seeing handsome boys, while only leaving behind the appreciation for girls. The two eggs that passed away also took away their impulse and possessiveness towards girls.

  They both knew that when they comforted each other in bed, the images they had in their minds were those of people they had always been repelled by. Just like Ye Cai, when she sought comfort and satisfaction, the man who appeared in her mind and lay on top of her was mostly that legendary man.

  Although they didn't explicitly mention it to each other, from the way they comforted each other and used that small mouth to actively accommodate each other, some clues could be seen.

  Their bodies have changed their angle of desire, and also made them reverse their stance on sexual needs. No matter how hard they struggle or search, they can't find back the rough and savage mentality they once had.

  Perhaps the flesh, through means such as survival instincts and hormones, always controls human thought. And people can only perceive this great contradiction at certain times, just like when they transform into a woman.

  To transcend the imprisonment and control of the flesh, perhaps there is no other way but death.

  And Yeh Tsai, who had sensed the desperate atmosphere lurking in everyday life, was now pondering whether she needed to do some work on her own body, so that those endocrine glands would no longer affect her thoughts.

  "Eh, Cai Ge..."

  Liu Youyou called out to her, and on her charming face, a slightly bitter tired smile floated, under Ye Cai's equally tired and bitter gaze, she said in a teasing tone: "Let's not get stuck in the horns of a dilemma anymore, okay?"

  Ye Cai was taken aback, and in Liu's gentle eyes, he found a hint of seriousness and melancholy. He couldn't help but smile and say, "Don't ask me, you think what choice is good, then just go with that..."

  Liu Youyou pouted slightly, but her eyes had a hint of confusion. She turned around and smiled, saying: "Why don't you go find your boyfriend, huh?"

  "Looking for your sister?" Ye Cai sneered, making Liu Youyou's face sink, and she raised her eyes to ask again: "Then what do you want? Marry me?"

  There was a hint of sarcasm and disdain in her tone, revealing her deep-seated revulsion and resistance.

  "Yè Cǎi suddenly became annoyed and snorted, saying: 'You're so annoying! If you want to go like that, then just go, why ask me? Damn it, am I going to marry you or something? Every time isn't it always you bullying me?'"

  They looked at each other and burst out laughing, with a mixture of helplessness and playfulness in their hearts, yet the smile they exchanged was so soft, beautiful and charming.

  After their eyes parted, the atmosphere fell silent again. Ye Cai hesitated for a moment before saying, "You want to... compromise?"

  Liu Youyou propped up her cheeks, a sly smile playing on the corners of her mouth, and struck an extremely seductive pose, saying: "Do you think I'm a boy or a girl?"

  Ye Cai nodded silently, chuckled and said: "Alright, alright, you want to go then go, what's it got to do with me?"

  Liu Youyou's expression slightly changed, and she coughed a few times in an affected manner. She adjusted her posture and snapped her fingers a few times before asking with a pretentious tone: "Where else can I go?"

  In an instant she became gentle and soft again, throwing a flirtatious glance, and said with a sweet breath: "I am yours alone..."

  Perhaps surprised by Liu Youyou's quick and natural change in demeanor, Ye Cai was stunned, his eyes gradually softening, a faint smile appearing on his face as he nodded slightly, seemingly very satisfied and relieved.

  "So cute~~~~"

  The willow tree swayed gently, calling out softly, and he moved a stool to sit beside her, then, as if no one was around, he held her small face in his hands, their eyes locked in a dazed gaze.

  "Zi You, it would be better if you were still a man..." Ye Cai's eyes became dim and he muttered: "If what you said was true, I would definitely..."

  "Damn it!"

  Liu Youyou pinched her chin and said: "I damn well hoped you were a cute boy, just what you wanted, what am I supposed to do?"

  Ye Cai was dumbfounded, this kind of thing is like during the Chu-Han Contention, after switching allegiance to another king, not only meaningless but also ridiculous.

  She had originally planned to find a way to get Liu Youyou back in the boys' dorm, and pin someone so intimate under her on the bed to do that thing. She thought she didn't have any psychological barriers, but instead was eager to be truly filled with emptiness. However, she neglected the female Liu Youyou, neglecting the other person's feelings. Perhaps, if there wasn't a female Liu Youyou and her intimate mutual comfort, there wouldn't be such a perverted idea.

  Yes, the gap between Liu Youyou, who pretends to be cold and elegant on the outside but is actually carefree and silly in front of Ye Cai, and Ye Cai, who is meticulous and worried but yearns for a simple and carefree life, is almost zero.

  Sharing joys and sorrows, discussing any topic without reserve, able to be naked in front of each other, seeking comfort and solace from one another, mutually infatuated, their mindset not limited by traditional male-female roles, knowing each other inside out, without any barriers.

  Such an intimate and inseparable bond can only be created in this situation.

  (……)

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