No pop-up ads, so refreshing! Thanks for your support! Sounds good to me ^_^... Chapter 105

  Shu Ying used the four words "afraid of crime to end one's life" instead of "violent death" or "mysterious death", my heart that had been grasping for so long finally slowly let go, although it didn't and couldn't completely settle down.

  I looked at Pei Ying's heartbroken appearance, but couldn't say anything, couldn't do anything, not even a comforting word, and could only accompany her in silently shedding tears.

  She got up and left the He Feng Pavilion, wanting to go find Nan Chengyao. However, he was not in the mansion. Xun Yun quietly looked at her for a long time before opening his mouth: "The prince has gone out of the mansion. Before leaving, he instructed that if the princess comes over, please ask the princess to return and wait, don't do anything... Actually, Xun Yun thinks that the princess doesn't need to worry about anything, because even if the sky falls, there is still the prince to help you bear it. Xun Yun only hopes that the princess can understand, the prince is also human, he will also feel pain and get tired."

  This was her first time, looking straight into my eyes and speaking to me, without the humility of lowering her eyebrows.

  I closed my eyes and didn't say anything.

  That night, in the side hall of Gui Mo Ge, every word that Nan Chengyao said I remembered. I wasn't ignorant; perhaps he loved me.

  But this kind of love, I am powerless to face again.

  I think I will never learn his ruthless and merciless heart, towards others and himself.

  Perhaps I can understand and even try to comprehend, but there's no way to accept it wholeheartedly as if nothing had ever happened.

  It's as if he can watch the former me jump down from in front of him, while I couldn't bear to watch him being beheaded.

  That one time was once, and it's not that I don't remember, but it doesn't exist anymore.

  Just as with love, not all harm will be erased just because it's in its name.

  I don't know what else I'll encounter, nor do I know how he will behave next. I'm not as strong as he imagined me to be.

  I'm too tired, and there are too many things in this world that can't be solved with love alone.

  Back to the He Feng Xuan, perhaps seeing my face not too good, Shu Ying forced herself to hold back tears and instead comforted me: "Miss, don't be sad anymore, Jun Shao is most concerned about you, if he knew, he wouldn't want to see you like this. Why don't I help you lie down for a bit? You shouldn't just think of yourself, but also the child in your belly!"

  I stretched out my arms to hold her, my Shu Ying, who always wholeheartedly gave me warmth. But I couldn't tell her the truth, at least not now, before Pan Yu was completely out of danger, I didn't dare take any risk.

  Waiting in the He Feng Xuan, I couldn't help but feel anxious, however, I remembered Nan Cheng Yao's words and didn't dare to make any moves.

  It wasn't until late at night that I saw him again, with a hint of fatigue between his eyebrows and holding an umbrella in his hand.

  At this hour, except for Shu Ying who refused to leave my room, everyone else had gone to sleep.

  I suddenly stood up, and suddenly realized that my movements might be too hasty, so I calmed myself down and opened my mouth to say to Shuying: "Shuying, you go downstairs to sleep first, I have something to talk to the lord about."

  Perhaps it was because she saw Nan Chengyao rush into the fire to save me, so when I said this, she looked at Nan Chengyao again and nodded obediently before leaving to close the door for us.

  "Your Highness..."

  As soon as I opened my mouth, his actions stopped me from speaking. He stretched out his hand and put the cloak on me, personally helping me tie it up. The words that came out of his mouth were extremely light: "Mu Rong Yu won't listen to my arrangements, so I'll take you with me."

  The heart that had been hanging in suspense finally settled down at this moment.

  I looked at the faint blue color at the bottom of his eyes, but in the end, he just slightly lowered his eyelashes and softly said: "Thank you, Your Highness."

  He didn't make a sound, just gazed at me deeply for a long time, then his lips curled up into a faint arc, seemingly self-mocking and desolate, yet his voice was flat and devoid of any extra emotions.

  "No need, I'm willing to," he said.

  Before I could react, he had already turned around and walked out the door in big strides. I looked at his back, suppressing my complicated emotions, and followed in his footsteps.

  He stood still in the courtyard, stretched out his hand to me, I took a deep breath and put my own hand into his palm.

  He exerted a bit of strength and pulled me into his embrace, gently supporting my waist, and said: "Close your eyes, don't be afraid."

  Actually I'm not afraid, Zhen has taken me out of the mansion like this before, but still followed his words and gently closed my eyes, only to hear the sound of the wind whizzing past my ears.

  When he called me to open my eyes, we were already in a small and dim room. I saw Yan lying on the bed at a glance, and without thinking about anything else, I rushed over immediately.

  He went to southern Xinjiang, this is the first time I saw him.

  He has lost a lot of weight, and perhaps because of this, the bright and handsome face of the past has less gentleness and vitality, but more angular coldness and fatigue.

  I couldn't help but reach out, gently stroking his gaunt cheek with a heart-wrenching touch. Although it had gradually warmed up, the unusual coldness still made my heart skip a beat.

  From now on, there will be no more existence of Murong Yu in this world.

  There was no one else in the house. I sat on the edge of the bed waiting for Su to wake up, while Nan Chengyao stood quietly behind me, not saying a word.

  When the sleepy Wan slowly opened his eyes, I held his hand, almost holding my breath.

  "Bi'an Sheng Xiang", I've heard Su Xiuzhen mention its medicinal effects before, but I've never seen it, let alone used it for the first time.

  When it comes to my loved ones, I couldn't help but worry.

  The scattered light and shadow in his eyes slowly gathered together, and I saw my own shadow in his eyes.

  He stared at me fixedly, blinked once, and then again, his expression somewhat dazed.

  I took a deep breath, held back the tears that kept welling up, softened my voice and asked him: "How are you feeling now? Is there anywhere uncomfortable? Try stretching your body..."

  My words were not finished, he suddenly got up and hugged me, but after all, because the medicine had just passed, his action was too hasty, and he fell back onto the couch again due to lack of strength, while I was also brought down by his arm, and my whole body fell on him.

  He didn't let go of me, instead he increased the strength in his arms, tightly embracing me. His voice was trembling with a hint of tension: "Second sister, let's leave this place together."

  He grasped my arm so tightly that it even made me feel a slight pain. I closed my eyes and let out a silent sigh.

  Just as he was about to say something, he suddenly heard Nan Chengyao's voice coming from behind him, cold and detached, word by word, crystal clear: "Do you think it's possible?"

  I felt that Lian's body suddenly tensed up at that moment. Chapter 105

  Shu Ying used the four words "畏罪自尽" (died of fear of punishment) instead of "暴毙" (sudden death) or "离奇死亡" (mysterious death), and my heart, which had been clenched for so long, finally slowly let go, although it still hasn't, and can't be completely at ease.

  I looked at Pei Ying's heartbroken appearance, but I couldn't say anything, do anything, not even offer a word of comfort, all I could do was accompany her in silence and cry quietly.

  She got up and left the He Feng Pavilion, wanting to find Nan Chengyao. However, he was not in the mansion. Xun Yun quietly looked at her for a long time before speaking slowly: "The prince has gone out of the mansion. Before leaving, he instructed that if the princess comes over, please ask the princess to go back and wait, don't do anything... Actually, Xun Yun thinks that the princess doesn't need to worry about anything, because even if the sky falls, there is still the prince to help you bear it. Xun Yun only hopes that the princess can understand, the prince is also human, he will also feel pain and get tired."

  This was her first time, looking straight into my eyes and speaking to me, without the humility of lowering her eyebrows.

  I closed my eyes and didn't say anything.

  That night, in the side hall of Gui Mo Ge, every word that Nan Chengyao said I remembered. I wasn't being obtuse; perhaps he loved me.

  But this kind of love, I'm already powerless to face it again.

  I think I will never learn his ruthless and merciless heart, towards others and himself.

  Perhaps I can understand and even try to comprehend, but there's no way to accept it wholeheartedly as if nothing had ever happened.

  It's as if he can watch the former me jump off in front of him, while I couldn't bear to watch him being beheaded.

  That one time was once, but it's not that I don't remember, it just doesn't exist anymore.

  Just as with love, not all harm will be erased just because it's in its name.

  I don't know what else I'll encounter, nor do I know how he will behave next. I'm not as strong as he imagined me to be.

  I'm too tired, and there are too many things in this world that aren't solved by love alone.

  Back to the He Feng Xuan, perhaps seeing my face not too good, Shu Ying forced herself to hold back tears and instead comforted me: "Miss, don't be sad anymore, Jun Shao is most concerned about you, if he knew, he wouldn't want to see you like this. Why don't I help you lie down for a bit? You shouldn't just think of yourself, but also the child in your belly!"

  I stretched out my arms to hold her, my Shu Ying, who always wholeheartedly gave me warmth. But I couldn't tell her the truth, at least not now, before everything was completely safe, I didn't dare take any risk.

  Waiting in the He Feng Xuan, I couldn't help but feel anxious, however, I remembered Nan Cheng Yao's words and didn't dare to make any moves.

  It wasn't until late at night that I saw him again, with a hint of fatigue between his eyebrows and holding an umbrella in his hand.

  At this hour, except for Shu Ying who refused to leave my room, everyone else had gone to sleep.

  I suddenly stood up, and suddenly realized that my movements might be too hasty, so I calmed myself down and opened my mouth to say to Shuying: "Shuying, you go downstairs to sleep first, I have something to talk to the lord about."

  Perhaps it was because she saw Nan Chengyao rush into the fire to save me, so when I said this, she looked at Nan Chengyao again and nodded obediently before leaving to close the door for us.

  "Your Highness..."

  As soon as I opened my mouth, his actions stopped me from speaking. He stretched out his hand and put the cloak on me, personally helping me tie it up. The words that came out of his mouth were extremely light: "Mu Rong Yu won't listen to my arrangements, so I'll take you with me."

  The heart that had been hanging in suspense finally settled down at this moment.

  I looked at the faint blue color at the bottom of his eyes, but in the end, he just slightly lowered his eyelashes and softly said: "Thank you, Your Highness."

  He didn't make a sound, just gazed at me deeply for a while, then his lips curled into a faint arc, seemingly self-mocking and desolate, yet his voice was flat and devoid of any extra emotions.

  "No need, I'm willing to," he said.

  Before I could react, he had already turned around and walked out the door in big strides. I looked at his back, suppressing my complicated emotions, and followed in his footsteps.

  He stood still in the courtyard, stretched out his hand to me, I took a deep breath and put my own hand into his palm.

  He exerted a bit of strength and pulled me into his embrace, gently supporting my waist, and said: "Close your eyes, don't be afraid."

  Actually I'm not afraid, Zhen has taken me out of the mansion like this before, but still followed his words and gently closed my eyes, only to hear the sound of the wind whizzing past my ears.

  When he called me to open my eyes, we were already in a small and dim room. I saw Yan lying on the bed at a glance, and without thinking about anything else, I rushed over immediately.

  He went to southern Xinjiang, this is the first time I saw him.

  He has lost a lot of weight, and perhaps because of this, the bright and handsome face of the past has less gentleness and vitality, but more angular coldness and fatigue.

  I couldn't help but reach out, gently stroking his gaunt cheek with a heart-wrenching touch. Although it had gradually warmed up, the unusual coldness still made my heart skip a beat.

  From now on, there will be no more existence of Murong Yu in this world.

  There was no one else in the house. I sat on the edge of the bed waiting for Su to wake up, while Nan Chengyao stood quietly behind me, not saying a word.

  When the sleepy Wan slowly opened his eyes, I held his hand, almost holding my breath.

  "Bi'an Sheng Xiang", I've heard Su Xiuzhen mention its medicinal effects before, but I've never seen it, let alone used it for the first time.

  When it comes to my loved ones, I can't help but worry.

  The scattered light and shadow in his eyes slowly gathered together, and I saw my own shadow in his eyes.

  He stared at me fixedly, blinked once, and then again, his expression somewhat dazed.

  I took a deep breath, held back the tears that kept welling up, softened my voice and asked him: "How are you feeling now? Is there anywhere uncomfortable? Try stretching your body..."

  My words were not finished, he suddenly got up and hugged me, but after all, because the medicine had just passed, his action was too hasty, and for a moment, he fell heavily back onto the couch, and I was also brought down by his arm, my whole body falling on top of him.

  He didn't let go of me, instead he increased the strength in his arms, tightly embracing me. His voice was trembling with a hint of tension: "Second sister, let's leave this place together."

  He grasped my arm so tightly that it even made me feel a slight pain. I closed my eyes and let out a silent sigh.

  Just as he was about to say something, he suddenly heard Nan Chengyao's voice coming from behind him, cold and detached, word by word, crystal clear: "Do you think it's possible?"

  I felt that Lian's body suddenly tensed up at that moment. (Still remember the shocking scene in the harem)

  Still remember the shocking swan's reflection (harem)