Chapter 55: Sorry!

  Zhang Ziheng handed over a tissue and said softly, "It's really not easy to see you cry once. If I have to part with you to see it, I really hope I never get to see it."

  Bai Yujie wiped away her tears, smiled slightly and said: "Zi Heng, do you know? For more than a year now, I haven't forgotten about you. I really regret breaking up with you."

  "But it was you who suggested breaking up in the first place."

  "Yes, it was me. But have you ever tried to retain me? Have you ever said a word of 'no'? You didn't, you didn't say anything, you just nodded, as if parting ways with me meant nothing to you. At that time, seeing you like this, do you know how sad I was? If you had even gotten angry at me or held my hand and told me not to leave, I would have stayed without hesitation." Bai Yujie said with some agitation.

  Zhang Ziheng bit his lip and said, "I... I didn't know you thought that way at the time. Your parents were planning to send you abroad, and they also said that I wasn't good enough for you, so..."

  "So you agreed to break up just because I said so? How can you be so wishy-washy? Do you always have to follow others? Don't you know what you think yourself?" Bai Yujie asked, somewhat angrily.

  "I... I'm sorry, Yujie, I'm sorry. Actually, Yujie, do you know? When I decided to be with you, I've always felt inferior. In school, you were so beautiful, so excellent, all the boys took you as their dream girl. And look at me, so ordinary, so mediocre, except for being a bit better at studying, basically just a waste of space. How can someone like me be worthy of being with you?" Zhang Ziheng said with a bitter smile.

  Bai Yujie shook her head slightly and smiled faintly, saying: "Zi Heng, do you still remember the scene when we first met?"

  Zhang Ziheng raised his head and said, "Of course I remember, it was in the library. That day, I was holding several books, anxious to process the borrowing procedures, and accidentally bumped into you, knocking all the books out of your hands."

  Bai Yujie smiled and raised her head, recalling the past. "You know? It was just a few days after school started, I became the school flower. Every boy who saw me would smile like they were seeing their teacher, and they all wanted to stay by my side for a while longer. Whether it was going to the cafeteria to get food or going to the water room to get hot water, I basically didn't need to line up because there would always be boys coming over to help me. Sometimes when there were many people, they would even let me cut in line. It really spoiled me."

  Zhang Ziheng smiled and nodded, saying: "Yes, at that time you were simply a queen, all the boys in our department liked you. Hehe, sometimes I even thought, what's so good about you, isn't it just that you look a bit prettier?"

  "Yes, those boys are all because of my looks. I remember that day in the library, I and a good sister were just about to leave, you suddenly bumped into me, and my books all fell to the ground. I was startled, then you hurriedly helped me pick up the books, and then said sorry and left. Do you know what I was thinking at the time?" Bai Yujie smiled.

  "Hehe, what's on your mind?"

  "If it were usual, other boys would have bumped into me and kept asking: Are you okay? Are you alright? Sorry for bumping into you, I'll help you carry these books. Hehe, basically all of them are like that." Bai Yujie smiled.

  Zhang Ziheng smiled and nodded, saying: "Yes, it seems that I was a bit abnormal at the time. Why did I leave immediately?"

  "You apologized and then went to borrow books with a stack of books in your arms. I was very curious, so I followed you and stood in front of you on purpose. If it were any other boy, they would have let me go first, but you didn't even glance at me and hurriedly finished the procedure before leaving. Hehe, I was stunned at that time because this is simply too unusual for me." White Yu Jie chuckled.

  "You've been spoiled by those boys, and suddenly you meet someone who doesn't care about you, of course, you'll be stunned, it's normal. Thinking back, I really had something to do that day, was in a hurry, so didn't think too much." Zhang Ziheng smiled.

  "You had just left, and I picked up your student ID on the ground. I knew your name and what you were studying. At that time, I was wondering if you intentionally left your student ID behind. So when I went to your department to find you, I thought that if you asked me out while I still had your student ID, I definitely wouldn't agree, and I would even humiliate you in front of everyone." Bai Yujie said with a sly smile.

  Zhang Ziheng was taken aback, saying: "Hehe, is that so? I didn't expect you to have such vicious thoughts back then, but fortunately, you didn't get your way in the end."

  "Yes, when I returned your student ID to you, you just politely thanked me and then ignored me. Do you know what I was thinking at that time? You're really not giving me any face, I personally delivered the student ID to you, but you didn't even think of asking me out, you're really infuriating." Bai Yujie said.

  Zhang Ziheng thought for a moment, then said: "That's not right, it wasn't that I ignored you, but rather I was squeezed out by others. Think about it, when you came to our department, all the boys were like they had been injected with chicken blood, competing with each other, and I only exchanged a few words with you before being pushed to the back by them."

  "Excuse you, at that time you didn't take me seriously at all, just thinking about the student ID." Bai Yujie said with a glance.

  Zhang Ziheng smiled awkwardly and said, "Indeed, at that time I was very anxious because I lost my student ID and couldn't find it anywhere. Suddenly someone sent it to me, so of course I was very happy."

  "Twice in a row, you made me eat humble pie, and I'm getting more and more curious about you. Then I started asking others about you, only to find out that you're the top student in your department, a bookworm. Maybe it's because of my curiosity, I wanted to get to know you better, so I started taking the initiative to approach you." Bai Yujie smiled.

  "I knew it, I said so. How could someone as ordinary as me make you chase after me?" Zhang Ziheng nodded and said.

  "Through several encounters, I find you're not like others. To put it nicely, you're just too simple-minded; to put it bluntly, you're a bit foolish. Hehe, I really can't understand how I ended up liking this fool." Bai Yujie shook her head and laughed.

  "When did you start liking me?" Zhang Ziheng asked.

  "Do you still remember that stray dog you picked up? I always thought that boys who like small animals are the most lovely and kind-hearted. Especially when you were teasing that stray dog, your expression was just too cute, I've never seen anyone talk to a dog like that before, you literally treated it as a human being." Bai Yujie said with a smile.

  Zhang Ziheng smiled awkwardly and said: "Me? Cute? Haha, my classmates all say I'm crazy, actually talking to a dog."

  "But I think it's cute, and that's when I realized I really kind of liked you. I don't know what drove me, but I actually confessed to you. But when I said the words 'be my boyfriend', I regretted it, I didn't even know why I said that." Bai Yujie laughed.

  Zhang Ziheng looked at her in confusion and said: "Why? Why would you regret it?"

  "I was afraid of being rejected, you know? There have been many boys who confessed to me before, but I rejected them all. Seeing their sad and disappointed faces made me feel sorry for them. So when it came to my turn, I was really afraid of being rejected by you, how embarrassing would that be?" Bai Yujie thought about it and felt that she had been quite ridiculous at the time.

  "Haha, yeah, usually I'm the one rejecting others, if I were to be rejected myself, it would indeed be embarrassing. But I agreed right away, because I was afraid you'd change your mind, so I didn't give you a chance to regret it." Zhang Ziheng chuckled.

  Bai Yujie shook her head and smiled, saying: "At that time we were really silly, maybe it was because we had never been in love before, suddenly there was one more person around us, always feeling a bit strange, but our hearts were very happy."

  "Yes, it was really fun back then. I suddenly became a legendary figure in school and all the boys treated me like an enemy. I even received threats more than once. Many people came to find me, saying they would take good care of me, otherwise they wouldn't let me off easy. Hehe, thinking about it is quite interesting." Zhang Ziheng shook his head with a smile.

  Looking at Zhang Ziheng's smiling face, Bai Yujie felt as if she had returned to the past, when the two of them were happy together. "Ziheng, no matter what happens, I will wait for you. I know that you can't let go of Wang Xue for now, she is a good girl and everything needs time, so I will definitely wait for you."

  Zhang Ziheng extinguished the cigarette, looked up at her and said: "Yujie, I think you misunderstood. Today I asked you out just to confirm some things, there's no other meaning. Admittedly, I still love you, but... what's past is past after all, it's not that easy to start again."

  "What's wrong? Zi Heng, are you thinking of giving up again?" Bai Yujie asked with a frown.

  "It's not that I want to give up, but we've already ended and there's no restarting. What's the point of giving up? If I were still alone now, I would definitely get back together with you, but it's too late now." Zhang Ziheng shook his head and said.

  "Why? Why is that? Is it just because of Wang Xue? Does one Wang Xue cut off the emotional ties between you and me?" Bai Yujie asked.

  "It's all because of Xue Er. Yu Jie, I know emotions are selfish. But think about it, if you were in Xue Er's position and now with me, she came back wanting to be with you, would you let go? Honestly, when it comes to emotions, I'm not proud of myself, I'm indecisive, I couldn't make a choice. However, there are some things that I must face up to, because this isn't just about me." Zhang Zi Heng sighed, picked up the cigarette on the table and stood up to leave.

  "Zi Heng, are you really not going to give me any chance at all?" Bai Yujie hastily said.

  Zhang Ziheng looked at her and said, "Yu Jie, I'm sorry." After that, he left the coffee shop.

  Bai Yujie sat alone, staring blankly at the coffee cup in front of her. She couldn't believe what she had just heard, this wasn't the outcome she wanted. But facts are always cruel, and she never thought such a thing would happen to herself.