Sitting on the edge of my bed I just stared off into the great unknown. Ok, maybe that was a little dramatic but I honestly was feeling rather strange about everything. Joey had texted me asking to hang out. Which normally wasn't a big deal, but now I was feeling all nervous.

  Was Jessy being serious about me and Joey potentially sleeping together? There's no way, it must be some sort of test. Right? Who let's their boyfriend sleep with someone else?

  I agreed to meet up with Joey, not wanting to act weird about anything we met up at a park a bit farther away from the campus. I wore a cute pink skirt and a light blue top. I don't know why but it took a bit longer to pick out my clothes today.

  I found Joey and we started walking around while talking about csses. I didn't really understand all the coding and programing stuff but I knew it could be used to make cool apps and games so that was always exciting to think about. Joey talked about one day making a fun game people could really enjoy.

  It was nice really, hearing him talking about wanting to make a game. Talking about the test episode of an anime we both enjoyed. Just talking and spending time, it was nice. But I kept feeling a little on edge.

  At one point we stopped by a pond, watching the ducks swim around making noise. "You seem quieter than normal today. Is everything alright?" I turned and could see the concern clearly written on Joey's face.

  "Oh yea! No, everything is fine! I just um... Have some stuff on the mind..." I tried to brush it off, I didn't want Joey to think I wasn't happy spending time with him after all. Joey smiled softly, his eyes darting away for a moment.

  "Something on the mind huh... Wouldn't happen to be anything Jessy said would it?" He looked directly at me and I could feel my face burning up. "I um..." I wasn't quite sure what to say.

  Joey chuckled "sorry if that caught you off guard. Jessy gets rather excitable about stuff and reacts a bit impulsively. She means well though." I felt myself calm down a little as he spoke. So he and Jessy had spoken about this? Well that's good at least. But that meant...

  "The offer was real?" I questioned it out loud. Joey turned away seeming rather ashamed. "Yea um... Doesn't mean we have to or anything... We can keep things as they are if you want... Jessy just thought... We might be rather compatible..."

  I frowned, for some reason that sat weird with me. Not that Jessy thought that but that it seemed like maybe Joey didn't want to. Which is fine!

  He has a girlfriend, why would he want to sleep with me!?

  Obviously he doesn't want to... Right?

  "I guess it's not fair to say it like that though" he continued, and I could see his cheeks turning red as well. "I um... Well I... Jessy said the idea out loud but I also thought... About you..."

  "Oh!" I felt my eyes widen and my heart beating faster. So he did want to do it!? But, I have so many questions.

  "Joey you're dating Jessy. Do you seriously want to sleep with me? Why?" I couldn't imagine anyone wanting to be with me when they could be with Jessy!

  "Well you just seem so kind and gentle and um... Honestly I just..." Joey paused and took a deep breath before turning to face me. "Jessy and I have been um experimenting. Sexually. The more we explore though the more it seems... I love her with all my heart and I would never want to be apart from her. It's just sexually... I know I can't really give her what she wants. Which is fine, honestly I think things have worked out pretty good on that end."

  "Wait" I stopped him, the gears in my head turning and burning. "Is Jessy sleeping with someone else!?" I excimed in shock.

  Joey chuckled and nodded "yea that was my idea I guess. She really has a lot of fun, and I love watching them. But I do sort of, somewhat, wish I could have that kind of sexual connection with someone. I didn't really think too much about it until we met you. Jessy sort of picked up on it right away. She said she would be ok with me sleeping with someone she ok'd and she said ok to you so there's that. I wasn't sure how to talk to you about it but Jessy kind of beat me to it anyways."

  We stood in silence for a moment, as I took some time to let it all sink in. So Jessy was sleeping with someone else, and Joey wanted to sleep with me? They keep dating but also sleep with other people? It sounds like it's just one each so I guess that's not terrible. Still, it was a weird situation.

  Even so though, it almost made things a bit easier. I didn't feel as shitty about my feelings for Joey. At least not exactly. I mean what would we be if I said yes? He'd be dating Jessy so would we just be friends with benefits?

  Would that even be a bad thing? I mean I get to spend time with a great guy and have sex. Plus I don't even know yet if the sex would be good. Maybe I could say let's try it at least once before I say yes or no?

  "Oh um, if you say no that's totally ok. Just please don't tell anyone. Jade is real big on avoiding any drama or rumors or gossip that could draw unwanted attention. If you say yes, obviously we'd want to keep things secret for now."

  Ok, well I guess that answers some of my questions. If people found out Jessy and Joey were sleeping with other people they'd probably start talking shit. People love drama, even when there really isn't any drama. People need either drama they can talk about, or the pretense to create drama. I can understand Jade wanting to avoid both.

  "But wouldn't our roommates piece it together?" I asked, as now I was trying to think through the logistics.

  "Oh yea, we have a pce that we meet up at. It's honestly pretty nice." Joey seemed lost in thought for a moment. "Actually maybe we should clean it up a little."

  "Joey... This is sort of a lot..." I pointed out, my mind and heart feeling both very conflicted. Joey took my hand in his and stepped closer to me. I felt my cheeks blushing as he raised his other hand to caress my cheek.

  "That's ok. If you want, we can take things a little slow. Start small. How about just a kiss for now?"

  I looked up into his eyes and silently nodded. He leaned in closer, his eyes closing and I felt my heart beating faster as I closed my own eyes. I felt his lips on mine, sweet and gentle just like him. Time stood still as he kissed, and then I felt him begin to pull away.

  Without thinking I grabbed his shirt with my hand, tugging at him, asking to remain in pce as I kissed him against. I felt his hand go around my waist as we kissed once more, this time a deeper kiss.

  I felt like my body would sink into his as we exchanged kisses. Without realizing it I kept tugging at his shirt, lifting it up. Finally he did pull away, though he still held me in his hands. I could feel my heart pounding.

  Damn, I didn't realize just how much I had wanted that...

  "Joey" I whispered as I leaned in closer, resting my head against his chest. "Could we have sex, just once... For now... While I think it over..."

  It sounded stupid and silly when I said it out loud. But Joey held me close and kissed my cheek. "Sure thing, I'll show you where we meet up. We can go as fast as as slow as you want. I just want you to be happy."

  I giggled as I held him a little longer before he led me away from the park. I was already happy.